Two kids. Two blessings. Two girls. One is 4.5 and the baby is 9 months. I love them both, so so much. I would’t trade the world for them.
However, I have moments. Moments that aren’t my most glorious moments. Times when I’m at my lowest, worn out, running on fumes, frustrated kind of moments. These are the times when I WISH for things to be easier. I wish for things to hurry up and move along. I wish I wasn’t in this SEASON of life right now. These wishes come into my mind…I speak them out of aggravation…and then they leave and I return to the thankful mother I am.
My friend Tracy is in a different SEASON of life. Two kids. Two blessings. A daughter and a son. One is 20 and the baby is 17:) She wouldn’t trade the world for them.
However, she has these moments. Moments of a longing, a missing, for something that once was. Times when the house is quiet, lonely, peaceful kind of moments. These are the times when she MISSES what used to be there. She misses the little hand prints on the window, and she longs to go back to the season THAT I AM IN NOW…the season I want to rush through. To wish through.
No matter where you are in life as a mother right now, listen to our hearts and see what God is telling you.
I wish I could get a full night’s sleep without anyone waking me up.
I miss when they would “sneak” into my room at night and climb into bed beside me.
I wish I could sleep in until 8 a.m.
I miss that early morning “MA-MA-MA-MA” when they were learning to call for me once they woke up… and then seeing them light up and get so excited and hold out their arms for me as I came in their room.
I wish Charlotte would just walk so I don’t have to hold her all of the time.
I miss how they would hold up their arms wanting me to pick them up and hold them. I miss how she would say “hold chu , hold chu” meaning “hold you” because we would say “do you want me to ‘hold you’??”
I wish I could just hop in the car and go without packing a diaper bag, food, and snacks.
I miss driving them everywhere. The best conversations always happened in the car. And I miss singing with them to “their music” and watching them laugh at me.
I wish the girls would take longer naps so I could get more done around the house.
I miss sitting in that big tree in the backyard with her singing and telling stories for hours and hours.
I wish I could wear cute clothes without spit up or snot on them.
I miss dressing up and having elaborate tea parties.
I wish I could go to the bathroom without an audience. Or holding a child.
I miss being able to hold them on my hip or on my shoulders.
I wish when I sat down at the computer I could get an email completed before little hands tried typing everything for me.
I miss holding their hands.
I wish my house wasn’t such a wreck half of the time.
I miss the days of playing trains and construction site and cars for hour and hours and hours.
I wish I could get a pedicure. It’s been MONTHS… (9 months to be exact)
I miss those tiny little feet and hands and those “squishy” little legs… oh my sweetness.
I wish Avery didn’t scream across the house for me because she’s out of milk.
I miss hearing him say “I Wuv you” or “Can I have Wunch” … we had to work on those “L” words… but oh so cute.
I wish bedtime didn’t take so long.
I miss telling stories, reading books and saying prayers together when I put them to bed. I miss laying with them in bed as they fall asleep.
I wish I could just lie on the couch, watch a grown-up show in its entirety, and eat a snack without sharing.
I miss Disney movies and cuddling on the couch.
(Update on February 6, 2014: I failed to recognize the women with mother’s hearts who have not been able to have children, or have lost a child. Every aspect of having children, the good and EVEN the bad, some women will never experience. Count it ALL joy, dear mommas.)
A note from Tracy:
As I thought about the days of “I wish” and my days now of ” I miss”, it made me think about the days of “I am so excited for”. There is a season and time for everything, and they are all perfect and beautiful. We need to relish in the moments of “now”, the present time. Take it in. Enjoy each and every piece of it…good, bad, difficult, tiring, fun… all of it. For there will never be a time like NOW. I starting thanking God for all my “I miss…” days instead of missing them and wanting them back.
What a blessing to have all those memories and so many more. What a blessing I have to enjoy today, this day that I have and this season that I am in. What a blessing I have to think about what is yet to come. There is so much to be excited for and look forward to. So I need to not hang on to the past, or wish away today but enjoy the moment. Each season and time of life that we are in is beautiful and wonderful in its own way.
And I know that God has been and is and will be with me through each season, each step of the way and everyday helping me, strengthening me , equipping me and preparing me for all of it. He is the one constant that I hang on to. Enjoy today , the now , the present. Be thankful for the past. Look forward to what is yet to come. There is a time for everything.
“There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven. A time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace… He has made everything beautiful in its time.” Ecclesiastes 3:1-11